This has been a tough week for me. Work was draining. I was exhausted and had a headache that would not quit. So I’m full of excuses why my exercise went off the rails this week. I did get in 2 workouts of the 4 that I planned. I just didn’t have the energy.
I’ve been going to the gym to do my runs on the treadmill. The weather ’round these parts has been bizarre, so I figured indoors was the place to be. In all honesty I’m not crazy about my gym. Here’s why:
- It’s inexpensive, it’s close to home, and I can always get a treadmill without any waiting (which are all the positives). But it’s bright and loud and crowded all the time.
- I’m constantly nervous that I’m going to trip and fall and make a spectacle of myself. That is true. Embarrassing and true.
- I have a hard time getting into a rhythm, maybe because it’s so boring. So I feel like my blood sugar is about to crash, I can’t catch my breath, see previous statement about tripping.
- I’m terribly self-conscious.
I just don’t know if this race series and this 10k in March are going to happen for me. I have a serious mental block. And I’m looking for reasons (excuses) to get out of it. I guess I’m contemplating scaling down my goal. Running is really hard and I keep thinking it’s going to get easier, and it will. But I don’t know when. For now I’m struggling, and so this couch potato isn’t having any fun.