No Excuses

Time for some perspective. This past week was not a total failure as I may have intimated in my last post. I got some workouts in – 3 of them so far, in fact. That is not too shabby. I did 2 boot camp workouts and 1 run so far. I have to let go of the idea that I have to be perfect. There is no way I will be able to follow my training plan exactly. The key is to listen to my body and not my couch potato brain and strive for 90% of the training plan. This week my body said “Rest!”, so I did. But then, I do a lot of resting, so sometimes I have to ignore that little voice and workout.

highway

There are times when I am utterly indecisive. It happens quite a bit actually, and I know it drives Bobby nuts. But there are other times, though few and far between they may be, when I am absolutely certain what to do. Usually what happens is that I will wake up in the morning and know what I need to do to resolve a nagging issue. What I’m saying is that it is possible for me to find clarity (sometimes. I think. I could be wrong. Just kidding…sort of). My point is that some people just fall in love with running, taking off and never looking back. That’s not me. It’s always been a struggle. I’m not passionate about it. I have never had that moment of clarity about the decision to do that race series. Therefore I don’t think I am fully committed to it.

So all week long I found myself looking for excuses (and I found them aplenty). I thought that maybe I’d really get into yoga instead. Or pilates. Or why not just walk? Or run/walk? Running is hard (in my best whiney voice). Waaahhh!

Ok. Can the pity party be over now? Yes running is hard. That’s why a lot of people don’t do it. It is important to me to break through this mental barrier I have. Yes running is going to continue to be hard for a while, but the more I run, the easier it will become. Right?? My mantra on the treadmill these past weeks has been “soon this will be your warmup”, and I realllly want to believe that. My point is that even though yoga and pilates are great and I enjoy them, I want to run.

I have to find that balance between working to mental exhaustion and wanting to plop on my couch with a large glass of wine, to recharging my batteries with a good, sweaty workout after school. Honestly, the benefits so outweigh any lame excuse I can come up with. Even last week when I felt exhausted to my marrow, fall-asleep-on-my-feet tired I could have at least walked. Even if I couldn’t get my head together enough to put one foot in front of the other a little faster I could still move. And I did. And I gave in too. Let’s chalk it up to a learning experience. In the grand scheme of things, it was still a good week. I mean, I’ve had months of sloth-like inactivity, so even this is a vast improvement.

Last night we went out to a nice dinner with our besties. We ate well, drank a lot, and had a really good time. This morning I was up early (thanks dogs, damn you both to hell), and I got my workout clothes on and exercised. Yes I had a headache, but it was fully self-induced. And I powered through it. And you know what? I felt way better after that workout than I would have if I parked myself on the couch all morning with an alka-seltzer. So a pat on the back for me.

Karen with Lotus and Dio

With Lotus and Dio in the yard

wings

I’m not giving up. I will figure this out. Any help is greatly appreciated because I don’t think I can do this on my own.

Searching for clarity in a muddled mind,

Karen

2 thoughts on “No Excuses

  1. You are not alone in your excuses. I would imagine that there are a nice sized group of us…obviously or there wouldn’t be a multi billion dollar diet industry. I thought I would share a few of mine to commiserate and most likely put yours to shame:

    I’m too tired, exhausted, sleepy, hungry, fat, busy to exercise.
    I deserve a break, it’s my day off I don’t want/have to do anything.
    The kids/food shopping/dinner making/laundry takes up all my time.
    My work schedule’s too full, there’s no time in my day. (I work 28hrs a week)
    The weather is icy/snowy/rainy/sunny/hot/cold/being weathery.
    I don’t know how to use the treadmill/circuit machines/equipment right. (I’ll just say that I work at a YMCA and know plenty of people that would be happy to show me what to do and would be nothing but supportive.)
    I can’t take a class at the gym because I’ve never taken one and will make a fool of myself by having a stroke and have to be taken out by ambulance. (not get breathless and have to take a short break and then rejoin the class.)

    My excuses have excuses. Mostly I’m just super attached to my old, ridiculous thought patterns and I should tell them to kiss my size 18 arse! Then maybe I can see that number change for the sake of my health and my future!

  2. I’m so glad to know I’m not the only one who struggles. I have a million and one excuses on any given day. I do hate when weather gets weathery. And I know exactly what you mean about taking a class because it’s how I feel about the treadmill. No one wants to be embarrassed in front of a bunch of people, let alone strangers! But let’s commit to powering through our insecurities. I know you’re always there for me. I’ll be here for you too. And remember that cocktail on the couch tastes just as good (better, in fact) after the workout than instead of it. See? We can have it all.

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