Taking Stock

059 035Today is my wedding anniversary. Bobby and I have been married for 8 years. Good years. Happy years. I feel very lucky to have found him because we are a good pair. We complement each other – he’s super friendly and outgoing while I am more shy and reserved. He’s got a great sense of humor and doesn’t tend to dwell on hurt feelings or slights, while I can nurse an emotional wound for months. We also lighten each other up, help each other keep perspective.

I haven’t written a post in a while because I caught a nasty bug. And in the spirit of sharing gave it to Bobby. Hey – we married in sickness and in health, baby! And honestly I didn’t have much to say since all I was doing was blowing my nose, watching “Lost” on Netflix, and knitting. But I’m back! And raring to go!

In my last post I said that I was going to log my food and exercise. And I did! I used a new app called My Fitness Pal and I have to say it was slightly annoying in the beginning, but I got the hang of it and now I like it. I especially like logging in the exercise because it allows me to eat more! What is especially helpful for me about keeping a food diary is that it keeps me mindful of how hungry I really am, and how much I really need to eat. I took a break from it when we went out for my parents’ 50th wedding anniversary dinner last weekend, but I’m back on it now.


Bobby and I went to a party over the weekend with his baseball team. At one point the players were talking about their weight. And someone decided it would be a good idea to go around and each tell what our weight is. Ummm…I’m not playing this reindeer game. But the conversation happened to occur after a particularly long, uncomfortable day stuffed into a pair of jeans that fit me a week ago. So, I gave my happy weight – the weight where I feel comfortable and healthy. The weight that isn’t difficult to manage; I’m not starving myself. And in all honesty I’m about 15 pounds from that weight right now. My goal is to keep logging with My Fitness Pal and lose that weight.

The other thing I’ve been thinking about is this race series. I’ve been overwhelmed by the idea for a while now, and I just want to let it go. For now. I want to run for the fun of it, not because I put some crazy expectation on myself that I really can’t do right now. Plus I want to exercise with people. I’m tired of working out alone (sorry dogs, it’s nothing personal).

So my other goal for this week is to take a class. I’m going to find one nearby and join. And if I don’t like it I’ll find another one. There’s plenty out there. I’ve taken lots of classes over the years: yoga, pilates, dance, tai chi. And they’re usually fun. I’m on winter break right now, and have no plans. So that means I have no excuses either, I guess. I’d love to do cross fit, but there are no boxes close by. But I’m thinking of a boot camp or pilates. Maybe I’ll be super daring and do both!

Meanwhile I have an anniversary to celebrate…and a house to disinfect.


Snow Day!


009 022 019 006I am a girl who loves a snow day. Today’s plan includes: playing in the snow with the dogs (again), shoveling (good cardio), sitting by the fire, drinking something to keep me warm and toasty, a little Wii dance off, boot camp on my yoga mat, and relaxing in the hot tub watching the snow fall. Not a bad way to spend a Wednesday.

Put Some Tools in My Toolbox

one way or another

Last week my motivation was at its lowest. And instead of doing what I know would have helped me (mixing up the workouts, having some fun) I did nothing. Well, that’s not entirely true. I drank a lot of wine, watched a lot of Netflix, and thought a lot about quitting and how that wouldn’t be so bad. Except that I drove in to work one morning behind a car with a 13.1 sticker on it. Mocking me. And Facebook friends wrote about their weekend runs. I was filled with envy! It made me realize that despite my current difficulties and lack of motivation, I still want to run. Soooo I have to figure out how to power through my pity parties.

And here it is Monday and I am chock full of renewed motivation. But I know I need some more tools in my toolbox to get me through these low motivation periods. When I’ve used food logs in the past they have really helped me. They are a pain in the neck, in general, but technology makes the process so much easier. I’ve used Lose It! and it helped me quite a bit. I’m not a huge fan of documenting every calorie, but it really does keep me mindful of whether or not I want to eat that helping of chips or m&ms. I’ve heard really good things about other apps, so I figure I’ll give them a whirl. This week I’m going to try My Fitness Pal and see if I like it any better than Lose It!.

The other app I’m going to use this week is the 10k for Pink Trainer. When I stopped using it back in October-ish I got all the way through week 8 day 2. Not too shabby! Since I have 6 weeks to my 10k (March 16th), I’m going to start this week’s runs on week 8 day 1. I’m really hoping that I will be able to get through it without any issues, but if I have to walk, then so be it. I am so over being bummed out about my current circumstances.

So this week’s workouts will look like this:

Monday – 2.75 mile run

Tuesday – boot camp week 4 day 1

Wednesday – 2.75 mile run

Thursday – boot camp week 4 day 2

Friday – rest

Saturday – 5K (Happy 50th Anniversary Mom and Dad!)

Sunday – crosstrain/rest/track workout?

get out your own way

Lazy Girl

I’ve been reading the book “A Champion’s Mind” and it’s depressing me. I am currently writing the antithesis to that book with this blog. I’ve become so disheartened that I haven’t worked out in a week and I am absolutely miserable. I’m frustrated and sad, annoyed and annoying. What a fun combination for my long-suffering, incredibly patient and wonderful husband to endure. Sorry Bobby.
I want to be upbeat and optimistic but this happens every time. I’m just so frustrated. I know I should just put on my workout gear and get out there.

I’m having trouble running. I don’t want to give up on it, but it’s not working for me right now. I’ve been walking, which is fine, it’s great exercise, but I really want to be running. Yesterday we ran into a friend who is planning to run the Holyoke Road Race in March – a 10k. I’ve been planning to do it, but fear I won’t be able to get the training done in time. I know what I need to do – get out there and exercise. But it ‘aint happenin’.


lazy girl

So what am I doing instead you ask? Well dear reader, maybe 17 hours of Parks and Recreation is not the best use of my time, but I did grab this kernel of wisdom: it’s not how many times you fall down that matters, but how many times you get up. Or something like that.

Tomorrow is a new day. I’m going to pack my gym bag so I’m ready to go tomorrow. I am recommitting to my goal – if it takes me longer to accomplish, welp, that’s better than never even trying, right? And maybe I should look for a new book.

i did it

Ever hopeful,